Social Media has always been a huge obstacle for me. In a world where vulnerability is prized, being vulnerable on the internet always seemed to me as weak or plastic. There was always someone out there, who was capable of expressing themselves much better than I. Call it fear, perfectionism, shyness, propriety, false humility or whatever you will, for whatever reason I have stayed away from social media.
Something happens in the heart of a human when they get on the internet. They want to be seen. They want to be liked. They want to be found beautiful. They want to be connected. They may be dying inside, but getting that like, reading that hilarious meme, or watching someone’s kid somewhere do something funny, might just be the highlight of their day. I have the same exact thing happen in my heart everytime I’m online. I want to be seen, but I want to stay hidden. I want to be humble but I long for recognition.
In the dawn of 2018 I have one passionate reason for why I’m stepping out now, I want the world to know Jesus. Really know him. I want to share my life and testimony. And if the world watches, great. I want to share about the things I’m doing and what Jesus is doing in me and through me. I’ve been a professional singer since 2007. In any case that was the first year, I was paid money to sing on stage. Throughout the years, I have met and worked with great people and somehow all that time I avoided really connecting with people via social media.
I also want to say thank you to God and all of the people who have watched and supported me for the past 15 years. Thank you for putting your money down for a little girl from the mountains of N.C. Thank you. I am humbled and truly grateful. I may have really let you down by not staying in touch as you had hoped I would, but I’m grateful for you. I haven’t forgotten what it means to receive an undeserved gift. I haven’t forgotten your kindness.